I agree, all right now is completely over the top. Should we try to laugh at the ridiculousness? Otherwise we may totally lose ourselves in the anxiety.

I do have faith you will figure out something safe to do for now. Maybe find someone else who needs a roommate. All you need is a short term situation at the least to avoid being homeless.

I hear you about how your friend feigned concern by threatening to call the police. I tried to not confide in my friend too much, but she called incessantly and pumped it out of me. One time, I reached out to her for help. I had OD’d to the point where I was worried while having a hysterical meltdown and was alone. I asked her to drive the 45 minutes and take me to the clinic. She told me I could drive the distance down to her or drive myself to the clinic. So that’s the concerned friend, who constantly pries personal information out of me, but when I need her help, couldn’t give a shyt. These friends were not truly good friends.

Yes, there were many fun times together on a more shallow level. But when you really needed a true friend, they were only self serving.

Now, there are people who are truly friends. They will cross oceans for you and you will do the same. They are nice and genuinely care for you, and you the same. You and I simply chose friends who were not these people deep down.

May we live through these tough times, move on to better ones, and find quality people to spend the rest of days with. I’ve met really nice people here at PC. Keep faith in humanity, hard as it may be now.