It is not easy to find someone who needs a roommate in a pandemic. Either people are staying put or moving in with family. I don't "know" anyone and moving in with a complete stranger at this time sounds like hell...since I have never done that in my life, am high risk for Covid, and have anxiety. The idea really creeps me out. Every time I move I look into the housemate or roommate thing and it always feels creepy. Like people who want someone who "share" their life philosophy to one person who wanted a roommate willing to dog-sit for her when she went out of town for business or pleasure, free-of-charge. Come on! Roommates are not friends. (Anyway, when I went out of town I always paid my friends lavishly for feeding and checking in on my cats when I had them.) Also a lot of people smoke and want roommates who are okay with that, which I am not because I have asthma. Makes my truck look cozy!

I have exhausted all possibilities of people helping. As well I am battling depression and anxiety which makes it feel like I am wading through mud.

I considered deleting my account here before things get weird. Maybe I still will. I always kept it as a kind of timeline to see my ups and downs over the years.

I came back to this post - was going to delete it.

I will call emergency family assistance again this week.