Can’t get a doctor appointment until Thursday. They said I have to do a phone appointment first for GI symptoms, probably because of their association with COVID. Then I may have to go in for a face to face appointment, then most likely some tests. So it looks like I’m going to be missing a few days of work the first and possibly second week. It sucks because I hate taking time off as I dont get much PTO and I certainly don’t want to take time off on the first week back at work!! But it is what it is. I ate very low fat yesterday and I was fine. I went to the store to grab some low fat items that I really like, such as low fat cream cheese and low fat margarine to replace butter. I also got plain Cheerios and low sugar, fat free ice cream so I can at least have some damn ice cream. Hopefully I will figure this out soon.

I had a weird dream last night. My late husband was upset so I told him I was going to leave now, hugging him and telling him it was ok. It was because I was marrying RS. It’s almost like it was a final goodbye. It was interesting. After all I’ve been through with him, and all the revelations over the past few weeks, it was like I was laying it all to rest. Perhaps I am. I’m beginning to get to sleep without having to listen to comedy to turn my mind off. Part of that is seroquel, I’m sure. I read a suggestion online to take it about an hour to and hour and a half before you intend to go to sleep and you will wake up easier. I’ve been doing that but I haven’t practiced getting up earlier. I did wake up at 8:45 on Saturday which is unusual for me, as most of the time I sleep until 9:30. So that’s a good sign.