I can't seem to move out of square one. I picked up a depression pamphlet and realised that my problems are still rooted in the past. You know when you are instinctively drawn to something and you have to pick it up?
I was referred to a psychologist years ago but they left. I was not given a new referral. Should I ask the psychiatrist to be referred? I feel like I have received enough help from them all ready.
I have written about my life but I haven't spoken about it aloud in entirety before. Maybe I need to bring things to the foreground now. What if the psychiatrist thinks I won't benefit from it? Or if the waiting list is too long?
I don't think I can afford a private psychologist. Not when I live alone.
I have some lovely friends and get along with my family. But I'd like more than casual flings that lead nowhere. It's hard to gauge how much to tell a person, how much to disclose without making them run to the hills.
Maybe I need some help to get my past sorted. My story is in the creative section if anyone wants some background info on my life. Look for posts by Lunatyc. I've had a rough time. Abusive relationships, authoritarian up bringing, attempted assaults, a breakdown, stigma, prejudice, alcohol misuse. Messed up.