I understand what you are going through. It is difficult and at least for me I feel like we are losing connection. Slowly the trust and connection is fading away. Yet I am stuck. She is in private practice and does not plan to return to the office anytime soon. A few weeks ago she said she suspected it may be next spring or summer. I am losing faith in that. I do not see an end to teletherapy. I start to wonder if she really will go back. Shr seems to enjoy eating lunch at home with her family, seeing her child during lunch or between appointments if she has a cancellation, etc. Yhis cause me to downward spiral a bit and yes start having a lot of anxiety.