Last Tuesday, I attempted suicide once more, this time by taking aspirin and trying to overdose. Since then, my now ex girlfriend Mandy has reassured me that she does love me as if I were one of her family and is being rather supportive, (I know that sounds suspicious, but she isn't the type to lie.) my homeroom teacher is concerned about my well being even more and my parents are keeping a tighter grip on me. Can you blame them though? What i did wasn't intelligent or thought through. It was an impulse because of this damned depression...

I looked back at my earlier writing piece "The Life of a Schizophrenic," and see now that during all that time, I was in fact depressed. This poses a question however; I wasn't always in major depressive states. What does that mean? We are in fact decreasing the Geodon and have had no ill effects as far as delusions or hallucinations. I don't consider myself a buff by any means, but I would say that what I have is close to Major Depressive Disorder with psychotic features. Either that or just simply depression with psychotic features. Haven't been psychotic in so long though...it's a puzzle I'll have to solve with my doctor when I see him on Wednesday, but any help would be appreciated.

As far as writing, I'm trying to get three of my fiction stories published after I finish writing the third one. I would post parts of them here, but my mother doesn't want people to steal my work. Honestly, it's substandard. Just like me in every way, shape and form. Or is that just the self hate talking again?

Did anyone on here know that Mstislav Rostropovich died on April 27, 2007? Tomorrow I will do my best to honor his memory as I am an aspiring cellist, even if I am the worst person that could ever operate a cello. If you do not know who this man is, check him out on Youtube.

Other than that, I guess nothing much is going on. i know I haven't posted in so long, so it is kind of strange for me to be doing it again, but people on here are supportive and kind. If it were up to me, I'd let you see my fiction stories, but it isn't so I can't.

For now this is it...