I am almost feeling defeated.

This low I'm in is so persistent. And on top of it I have anxiety. I get nervous about every little thing, even for stuff I do at home.

I have really come to know exactly what it means to be holding on by a thread.

I upped my dose of Wellbutrin about 2 weeks ago. I was on this dose before - it just reduces my body pains from the depression. I'm still waiting for it to start working.

My pdoc is out of ideas. So now I'm left in this situation for who knows how long. I'm waiting for an appointment at a special clinic but with covid, who knows when that might happen.