The only thing that affects me is if I actually see another patient (this only happened once and I beat one of 'em up in the parking lot) and if I sit there, really allowing myself to imagine a beautiful connection between T and another patient (particularly a woman. An attractive woman).

As far as the number of patients... he could have 43589345345 and I don't care because he treats me as though I am the only when I am in that office-- and he makes himself available to contact him by phone and email as much as I want.... so what more could I ask for?

(Today, when I asked him to stay at the hospital with me, he did say 'no.' Then he said, 'We already discussed this, rememeber?')