I was up to 2:30am with the worst awful stomach ache from my veg bean stew. It persisted today too. I retched. I'll have to throw it out. Not looking forward to it as the smell haunts me. Sickening. Oh well, i tried and it was cheap-like-borscht as i bought most of the ingredients at a dry bulk store. It might have been that i didn't soak the beans thoroughly enough. It was my first time using dry beans. I've only ever used canned before. Also i might have gotten too adventurous with the strains using adzuki and romano which i've never had before either. Also my 54-year-old stomach might be too weak for that dish now. Beans are hard to digest and all the fiber from the veggies spelled disaster. "I swallowed some Scrabble tiles. When i go to the bathroom it could spell D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R!"

Well, at least my life allows for me to rest and relax all day and recover without any consequences. I had fun trading puns with my Scrabble pal tonight. "What is that in the road? A head?" The organizer of my online Scrabble club night here in the city sought me out to play so that was nice, to be asked. I said No as i'm not up to it but it was nice to be asked. I hate to be always unaxed! Now i'm going too far!

The weather is cool so my Fall hypo/mania may start any time. I've been noticing i'm more active and excited at times. I want my mood to go up but then again i don't. It feels great but i have such bad judgement and end up embarrassing myself, tho i don't realize it until after it's over. Also, sometimes i crash hard. Last year i crashed into a fear psychosis which was horrid and so not worth the high. I sure don't want that again. I'm on 100mg of Seroquel this year tho. Last year i was only on 25mg. So i should be safe. I can go up a little if i need to. I have 25mg pills. More than 150mg gives me akathisia tho.

Hugs to all who struggle!