Hi @
Coolbreeze74,
I'm so sorry that you've been having such a rough go right now. I want to offer you encouragement and suggest that you do your best to do something for yourself special for your birthday. I'm so sorry for the long panic attacks. I don't know anything of the sorts, and I honestly don't want to. You are so strong to go through them.
They took me off of lorazepam too. I was given the reason that it forms horrible addictions. Isn't it strange that they put us on these meds and then take us off of them? What about hydroxyzine? I'm on that now and having great luck with my very small and infrequent panic attacks. I know its insanity to compare what I'm treated for to what you are, but I thought I'd offer it.
Anyway, I really wanted to say, LOVE and HAPPY BIRTHDAY on this most special of name days.
I'll be thinking of you.