Oh god, oh god, oh god, nothing is good lve accepted my wife has left me but my mood is not moving at all. Dark thoughts returning but so gutless l fear dieing. Staggered back to work but everyday is a struggle beyond belief. Living like a hermit, not going out, ignoring friends and family. Doing **** all, that is a year of this depressive madness. I need a miracle and they don't happen.......