I feel kinda crappy again. I got my eyes examined and the eye doctor said my vision is ok but that my eyes are dry and itchy which just makes me think even more that I have something medical going on. I haven’t been very hungry again today and my therapist emailed me today because she sent me an email yesterday after I sent her some stuff she wanted and she said she’d send me a more in depth one today.

In her email she said she knows she has been tougher on me and it “really doesn’t have anything to do with your personality but just that our sessions have been deeper so I feel like I need to push you.”

Ouch. I didn’t even mention my personality in the email I sent her yesterday. I just asked what was going on between us. So I sent her another email asking why she was being tougher on me if it was just the melatonin thing and I questioned the personality comment and she apologized for using the word and didn’t really answer my question about why she was being tougher on me but did say the melatonin issue was a safety thing and all that.

I’m not exactly happy right now but I really don’t feel well either.