I'm mad at myself for eating so poorly today. I just go round and round with this issue. I know it's up to me tho. The only person it matters to is me. The only one that can change it is me. And the quickest way is by accepting and liking and loving myself and my body. Then change becomes paradoxically both less important AND easier. I also need to trust myself and my intuition and my inner wisdom and goodness. According to mindfulness.

I took a shower today, got rid of that poisonous bean stew and washed, dried and put away the big kettle pot. So that whole debacle is O-V-E-R.

I managed a short meditation. I bought myself a belated birthday present, some clothes to replace ones i have fatted out of. Sigh! I sure hope i can still struggle into my parka this Winter. I don't want to have to replace that. It's $$$

Mood is down. It was a dull grey day. I took my dog out but otherwise i was inside at home all day. I love my dog. When i'm on ZOOM she gets up on my lap and is the star! People say hello to HER more than they do to ME! It's so funny seeing myself on ZOOM. I had no idea how animated i am. I smile and laugh and toss my head and roll my eyes and fidget. I've always thought of myself as rather deadpan but just the opposite. I'm the most expressive one there! Has anyone else been surprised by their ZOOM appearance?

Hugs to all who struggle!