Didn't want to get up this morning. Took the Vyvanse at 8am and got out of bed at 8:20am, made coffee and got to work for 9am. Then I finished at 1pm and got my Invega injection.

Hopefully the injection doesn't cause panic attacks. I didn't feel like telling my doctor that I have a habit of taking a 0.5mg alprazolam every evening.. Idk - I'm doing pretty well considering the odd things that hold me back..

I feel.. Honestly.. Just scared of having more panic attacks.. That's all..

If I didn't get panic attacks, I'd be the happiest person everrrr.. But also the ability to visualize what I want to do.. And not care about being successful etc.. Living with a soul sucking job instead of researching psychoactive/cancer molecules...