I miss:
- being happy
- the carefree days passing in a blur of giggles with my little sister
- being untroubled about the future and the past, living in the moment
- feeling secure that the world made sense and was fair
- feeling good about myself and my body
- loving my parents; later developed very mixed feelings about them
- feeling safe
- a rhythm to the days; my mom kept us on a schedule and it felt healthier than the day-long spontaneity i have now, chaotic
- being joyful to wake up in the morning; now it takes me several tries over many hours to get up