Thank you for your response. Hearing people say the way I feel is valid really helps. It especially helps to know that you were at a later age when you stopped working as I am 43 and have always worked even if just part time. It’s hard accepting that I may no longer be able to.

I do have a tendency to minimize but I’m trying really hard to be better about it. Again, unfortunately I have limited resources and am starting to feel like my pdoc isn’t really hearing me when I’m talking. I have tried so many meds but always seem to end up back where I’m at which is of course so very discouraging. As of now I’m on

Welbutrrin ER 300mg
Lamictal 400mg
Gabapentin 900 mg

With out being intrusive what can you tell me about intensive outpatient programs. Is it something you would do indefinitely? There isn’t anything available where I’m at but I have family in other locations of the US. It would be hard if there was no approximate ending to at as I am married with children. Thank you I’m advance for any help you can provide.