Another check-in:

I've been on Zyprexa, which was added because of hell depression, for a few days now, and I'm beginning to feel better. I don't know if it would have happened naturally without the Zyprexa, but either way, here I am. My pdoc also upped my Zoloft to 150mg from 100. I think both Zyprexa and the increase in Zoloft, are supposed to be temporary.

But a big problem remains. The night before last, I woke up, I don't know how and then I heard someone whistling loudly in my apartment. My pdoc knows about that because I just talked to her again yesterday (I talked to her twice this last week and I see her again on Friday). And then last night I saw shadows and very loud noises and it was terrifying.

Clearly, things are not as they should be. I'm going to give it another couple of days and if this continues will email my pdoc and see if she can fit me in before Friday. I would suspect more Zyprexa, or a change.

My mother and I have become closer, and for the first time I told her about these types of symptoms. She was supportive. And she called them 'My visitors,' and since I'm still sick, she asks whenever we talk on the phone, every day, if I've had any more visitors. It sounds tongue and cheek and it kind of is, but that's her sense of humor, and I'm glad she's being supportive.

Please wish me luck that these noises and shadows go away! they terrify me!