@Bill3 Thanks Bill

@divine1966 Divine, I really like the idea of looking for silver linings. Thanks for the reminder / idea.

In terms of my boss / guy I volunteer with, he used to have a gf. He may still. I don't know. But I forgot about that. He may have a gf! Also I friended him on Facebook once recently, and he did not accept the request. After a week, I clicked cancel. He is clearly not sending me any signals. In fact, he's nice, but sending me signals of disinterest. As polite communication, I say "how are you?" Lately he will bypass and talk about the organization instead of himself. I noticed he even will say "good" then say "I mean, the organization is good" and then talk about that. So, I think all that, I guess it does get to me. Maybe I don't "love" him. I mean, I'm worth more. I'm worth an accepted friend request and being let into someone's life. There's no pressure from me for that to happen with him. It just makes me sad. I do like volunteering there. But I wonder why I like it. Its something to journal about. Maybe I could scale back and do something else. Though I think I also want to feel better about myself. I wouldn't want to leave just bc of this. But it is a trigger for me. Something to contemplate. Also I get crushes easily. He's not the only one lol.