This affects just a lot more than my performance in games, I use games as a way to find out what exactly is going on in my head that's causing me to do things worse. I hardly ever play online because of how overwhelming these feelings are and how disheartening it is realizing you cant get better. So far I've come to realize that this is definitely a problem with my mindset, for some reason I tend to always expect myself to fail and because of this, for some reason, causes me to do things worse than I should. Hopefully I'm on the right track but even if I am I still dont know how to reverse this type of thinking since I'm so used to it. Fighting against it stresses me out and overwhelmes me. Thank you for responding!