Ryan...
I'm so sorry youre going through this. I have to say that I can relate to what you're saying and the situation just sucks. It's kinda opened up the way for the anger to set in and I have a way harder time dealing and handling anger than I do depression.
I hope you find a better solution too, but just hang in there, things will get better.
In the meantime you've got us right here waiting to help in any way we can.
Many blessings,
Kimberly.