I wish you nothing but the best NolaMae. I was an inpatient twice (for a different disorder) and was hospitalized against my will because I would not go willingly. I think voluntary versus involuntary is a big difference. In any event my psychiatrist both times was my best friend while I was in there and was the kindest human being I ever met. The only thing was the one drug that was prescribed to me while I was there. It didn't help but all in all I'd say the admissions helped me immensely. I hope everything turns out well for you and I hope you get the care you are seeking. I'll be thinking of you. Take good care of yourself