Went berserk in front of my sister about having another panic attack so she phoned my mom - My mom came home from work and asked if going to the ER was a good idea.

The doctor made me stay overnight to see the psychiatrist tomorrow on the TV as an emergency.

I panicked because I felt like everything was taken away from me. I panicked for 5 hours straight 2pm-7pm. It's 8pm now and I feel better.

I was given 5mg diazepam, then 5mg olanzepine then another 5mg diazepam.

The panic of complete horror wasn't enough go force me to take a 1mg Xanax blotter that I had in my wallet. I told the nurse that I trust everyone so I gave them the benzos.

Now I will take a zopiclone and sleep - I see the psychiatrist in the morning.. sigh..