He was a REALLY good psychiatrist. Asked all the right questions and listened to me and my mom. Best psychiatrist I've ever met.

He was conservative and seemed really smart cuz he could keep track of my complete mess - He looked up everything that I've been prescribed in my life and we discussed a lot and talked for over an hour.

He decreased the Vyvanse back to 40mg (Because changing it to 50mg is when I started to get bad symptoms - I think it's dopamine depletion) but he told me to take it at 10am instead of 8am in the morning and said if I still get dp/dr when it wears off, he can add a short acting stimulant in the evening.

He increased the olanzepine to 10mg at night - So I'll have a really good sleep tonight with the zopiclone too (He didn't change that).

I told him about my drug use and shroom overdose etc.. He said that my uncertainty and fear of my mom dying and me dying is excessive - Like my mom said. The fear of my dad being in on a conspiracy with everyone out to get me is just thoughts - Same with my suicidal thoughts - Just a coping mechanism.

I'm staying in the hospital for now so they make sure that I take my meds as prescribed. I put them in my signature as a verification to myself and so people can help me.

He mentioned that being on the Invega injection and Clozapine would be all I need (But I said that I would be way too tired and gain a bunch of weight - Although he said that it depends on the dose). We're keeping clozapine in mind.. He wanted to confirm my diagnosis short term and long term and said that my symptoms are likely schizophrenia/psychosis.

So all's good. I'm gonna watch TED talks and hopefully not have a panic attack with the prescribed alprazolam..

Side note: It's all quite ****ed up and I want this to stop lol