Moose, hon, I think you should call the pdoc first thing. You do sound a wee bit conspiratorial and paranoid and I am not seeing a truly legit reason for it. Please call. Maybe up the Serokill for 3-4 days and see, or whatever she says. You need some help.

You will get thru this. I do think you are not seeing things 100 percent accurately.

Hugs and love!!