people always thought it strange that I prefered the automated machines (because so many people find them annoying)

but: I would prefer to talk to them than I would a person

if I have to talk to someone, it has to be a female at the other end. if it isn't, I'll just hang up and redial until a female answers

and even then it's terrifying when you don't know said person.

on thursday I am having someone call me concerning my care. I probably shouldn't be anxious of her call (we've spoken a lot on email) but I am. I don't know what she sounds like, or even what she's going to say on the call.

I really want to take it though: I don't think it will come to much, (my support system is basically screwed), but you never know