I had a really good session today. My therapist knows like really personal stuff about me that no one else knows and she’s perfectly cool and accepting about it. I told her through email that I bought some stuff on Amazon. Then today she asked if I had taken any Xanax and I said no and I said it was because of a weird reason and she asked why. And I said “you know that stuff I ordered from Amazon?” And she was like “yeah” and I was like “well I used the pacifier and it really helped with my anxiety and I didn’t need a Xanax” and she was like super excited that I found this new coping skill. And she was saying how it’s like a sensory thing and how people on the autism spectrum have oral fixations and like to chew and suck on things and she was just like really accepting of it. We talked about other stuff but I was relaxed in the session and it wasn’t because of medication this time. And she said last session she was weird because of her and it wasn’t me.