Ugh. Total failure on the response of your T at that moment in time. Perhaps he was just taken aback or was surprised but I mean, he should have been able to talk through it with you. I've told T's I love them and they managed it. I haven't told current T that I love her but I'm not sure I do. Sometimes I do but sometimes I don't. But if I did and I told her I did, I'd want a response. You aren't an idiot or a monster. You are a person with feelings. I'm sorry your T let you down. HUGS Kit