((((((((((((BabyG)))))))))))))))

That isn't good. You deserve better than that... and if your avatar is you... you're beautiful already.

You're not being stupid, it's pretty normal to give up one form of self-harm in place of another... it isn't healthy, but it's what happens.

Do you have a doctor or a T to talk to you about all of this? Please be safe and try not to purge. It's a slippery slope to a full-blown ED that is harder to stop.