Since the post above, I've gotten very depressed. I'm so disappointed that I have no motivation. I've just wasted a whole day.

I did well, while the organizer was here with me yesterday. Then I felt well the rest of the day because something had been accomplished.

It seems I need someone hand-holding me through any task. I can't afford to keep paying someone $50/hr to help me. But that's how dependent I feel. I feel like I can't pull myself together when I'm alone. I'm so afraid I'm not going to recover.