I had a bout of mania a few months ago. Since it ended, I've been feeling pretty even. But, for the past week I've started getting up early or staying up late with little effect on my day. Today I was driving down the street thinking about how wonderful life is. Now I'm full of self-loathing and my formerly great life seems hopeless.

Am I rapid cycling or is this just the up and down of mania and depression. I'm so tired of adding new medicines or changing meds. I really don't want to have to do either one. But I don't want to feel so out of control.