I have a few Borderline traits but because I didn’t identify with some of the more outwardly symptoms I’ve never really thought about it that much. I do have a lot of internal rage that I’ve always found difficult to express because I’ve never been “allowed” to, if that makes sense? Parts of my upbringing were very restrictive so I had to quell my anger and feelings, which I think lead me to develop certain coping strategies. I sometimes have extremely strong feelings for people, both positive and negative, and that can change very quickly. I only recently found out that there was a quiet Borderline so a lot of those things make sense to me now. I tend to hide my feelings and silently stew until I make myself quite ill. That was more prevalent when I was in my teens and twenties.

I definitely think I’m more of an Avoidant because I identify with every one of those traits.