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Originally Posted by Miss Laura
Spoke to my Therapist today. I ended up in tears twice. She thinks I need to speak to my Psychiatrist. But obviously through my CPN. Cane to the conclusion that I'm massively struggling with denial and struggling to understand that my life is going to have to be different. I feel really angry and frustrated with myself. I can't see myself being happy and I'm rebelling against everything/everyone
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I'm so glad you had this breakthrough, Miss Laura, but sorry it is so painful.
Denial is a hard one. Remember, you are YOU, not just a label. We all gotta do what we all gotta do in taking proper care of ourselves, even is it isn't what we'd like.
I've got physical therapy exercises I need to do. I don't like them. I just want to not have to deal with it. For my body to just, you know, do its thing without this intervention. But it is what it is, and doing what I don't wish to be doing is what keeps things from getting out of control. And I have to do them consistently. Otherwise, the pain comes roaring back, it's an uphill game of catch up. Damn this arm. But it is what it is.
I'm sure the parallel doesn't need to be spelled out. Many, many hugs. Acceptance isn't a bad thing. Rebelling is a natural initial reaction, but doesn't get you anywhere good over time. Try not to tie your vision of being happy to it. Happiness can stand apart from this. There have been many things over the years I've had to come to accept that I don't like. It's just part of living.
Much
You can do this.