You are not a "misfit"......you are "somebody" and that is important. You're just stressed, confused and hurting - like everyone else here. I took an overdose this past Sunday, so I can relate, believe me.
I've tried all kinds of meds too: from Buspar, Zoloft, Paxil, Prozac, Celexa, and a few more I think.......lol. They just changed mine because my depression is getting worse.
Just remember, you are NOT alone. I've been in therapy for over 2 years and because of meds, lost the memory of a year of therapy.......that was scary.
Take care, and keep talking here.
Mary Alice