So my girlfriend and I recently decided to split up and take a break from each other because we have some issues. We used to be engaged but it slowly started going from engaged to just boyfriend/girlfriend to now nothing at all. First off let me tell you that it has really hurt me a lot....but i do know that we have problems and the main one is communication.

I didn't listen to her and I neglected her feelings for a long time and she went through all of that. We fought but then i would say that I would change and never did for more than 2 days. Well now since we have broken up I have been trying really hard to change what i'm doing and how i talk to her, listen to her, and finally share my feelings with her because i used to bottle them up and not tell her what was wrong even though she knew something was.

Well it seems like everytime that i think we are getting better at communicating we end up having a fight over something stupid. Tonight i wanted to go out with her and she wanted to go out with me but earlier in the day i said that i didn't know if we should go out because it might feel like a date and i don't want to feel like everything is ok when it isn't. Well when i got home she was gonna go out with her friends because she thought i blew her off and then that caused a big thing and i really wasn't trying to.

It just seems like no matter what i do i always end up pushing her away...and i don't want to. I know that she still loves me and that i love her and that we can be together if we work out our problems but everytime we fight i feel like i push her further away and i'm not trying to.

Sorry for the length of this but i just really don't know what to do. I want to be with her and i can't stop thinking about how much i do what to get back together.