I've been resisting an assignment for school because it is asking me to look at parts of me that I have run from. And now I am being asked to confront the hard stuff. I've been wrestling with this assignment for a week!!! And I keep getting more frustrated and irritated. I can't turn to my mentor because I'm afraid she will say I'm not ready for this path. I can't hear that right now. I don't want to be blocked from my dreams yet again!!!!!!! No one IRL knows what's happening, and that's an issue. But I don't want to be perceived as weak! Power makes me feel good. And that's a bigger issue. I don't want this assignment. I just need to write something but it has to be authentic. My assignment is due by tonight, I have 9 hours 22 minutes to get it in. And I'm blocked!!!

I don't want to give up. But I'm afraid I'll have too. And right now I can't face that.