I'm so sorry for your pain.... I have been in a loveless marriage for a long time. My daughter was 3 when I first discovered the cheating, I was 29 years old, according to other people quite attractive, and yet my husband just kept cheating. I have have breakdowns every time I caught him, cry, ask why, what was wrong with me? He always said it was a mistake, he was sorry, we would make up, but the pattern continued. We are still married, that's another story, but I have no feelings for him anymore, indifference is probably the major emotion. I cook and do laundry for the hosuehold, I work full time, take care of our 2 kids, basically fulfill my responsibilities as mother and "woman of the house", whatever that means. But I tell you, you dodged a bullet. You don't want to be where I am, and try to see the bright side, that there are no children in the mix. I feel for you, hang in there. You sound like a man with a lot of love to give, some lucky woman will find her way into your life.