There's too much chaos in this house. I wish my mom wasn't so dramatic and would quit drinking wine.

I felt much safer in the hospital.

My mom is going literally crazy dramatic because of taking grad pictures with my sister and their friends which is understandable but annoying as hell for even my sister and not good for my panic - But I brought the bottle of clonazepam with me to the lake - I didn't take any.

She always does this on a full moon - It's apart of her histrionic personality or the full moon actually does affect people idk..

I'm back home now. My sister and her friend are going to go out partying. If I did that, I'd have a panic attack for sure.

Still I'm doing good - I think if I can make it past 8pm after an evening "mind rest", I won't get a panic attack.

Took the 10mg olanzepine pill. I actually want to be a zombify myself right now and wait until it's time to sleep.