Hurt my knee somehow, walking. Maybe my weight puts pressure on my knees. I shouldn’t be hurting my knees simply walking. Oh well. I was supposed to get tires for my car. I don’t think I can now. My parents are gonna be so upset.

My mom offered to buy me new tires and then called me asking me why I was sending her a bunch of messages about tires, blowing up her phone. I only sent her 2 messages about the cost of a certain tire. Then she said she will only buy 2 and asked me to ask my dad about paying for the other 2. I was very upset to involve my dad but I told my mom she needs to be upfront about what she’s offering to do for me. She said “well I showed you the promotion for buy 2 get 2 free”. I said “you need to be upfront. You just told me not to assume you were gonna get me a whole set but I cannot tell what you are offering by you showing me a promotion on a item”.

Makes me very upset. This is how she locks me into shyt I can’t get out of because I can use my car without new tires now, so I gotta take the help...

I cried and cried about it only because my dad had to get involved. I told him I was sorry and also sorry about crying on the phone. He said “it’s fine but you need to get your head together”.

This is always what it is. My moms issues. And then I’m pressured into being at the top of my game 24/7 by my dad. By game I mean the game of life... doing things I need to do/should do.

This is why I subconsciously get upset at fiancé for playing video games so much. I inadvertently pressure him to do something productive 24/7. Just like I have been pressured to do. I’ve never been taught that relaxing is ok. He has. But it has given me great worth ethic. ... ... ...but I’m terribly sick from pushing myself over and over. He tells me I need to relax and not always work and write constantly or quit researching things etc. but I can’t. I can’t for the life of me.

TL;DR: My mom shortsighted me and pushed me into a situation with buying some tires for my car. Now my dad is involved financially and I feel guilty. Also, I’m a workhorse and I can’t stop being one but I’m making myself mentally unhealthy pushing myself to work, cuz I’ve never been taught to relax