I’ll have to talk with my doctor about it and look into compounding pharmacies. All of this discussion took place on mychart instead of in a visit. She or her nurse got quite pushy with me after I declined so I forcefully told them they were not listening to me, were badgering me, and asked them to please stop sending me messages. I’ll have to wait until my appointment in October to bring up options. Hopefully, I will feel better by then. I’m annoyed that a conversation of this nature took place on mychart instead of my dr asking me to schedule an appointment to discuss it. I’m also annoyed that my wishes weren’t really respected. The nurse gave me a website to read about ECT and I was a little aggressive about it. I told her to read it herself and she would see that ECT isn’t just a little treatment. It involves general anesthesia and the induction of seizures which can cause memory loss. I also suggested that the mechanism of action is unclear and may even involve placebo. I hate that I responded. I wish I could have just ignored it. Now I’m “that” patient. I feel also that by not choosing ECT I run the risk of being blamed for my suffering.