Thanks friends. You know it never occured to me to not answer the phones? Yup, strange. I think I am indispensible? So now I am trying to remember I am just ill and life goes on without me. I probably became ill because I was stretching too thin. By the way, I got the afrin the doc ordered and it's disgusting! I am used to the metered dose sinus scripts. How does one do afrin? Okay, I know, basic things I don't know. Add it to the list. Thanks again. As for son, he was manic a year ago to this extreme. He has a good pdoc and they are aware of everything. Hoping he can not be impulsive and not get arrested until this passes. He is 20. This illness is cruel to him. And as a mom all I want is for him to feel safe and secure. Doesn't it all come down to money? If I could I would buy him a house to live. But in reality one of his housemates has a lot of money from Dad and spends it all on pot and doesn't pay bills and my son gets stuck with them. So maybe money is not all it is cracked up to be? Alas, think I am starting to feel a bit better. Thanks again.