This all sounds very difficult. In my experience working with 2 Ts can in itself be challenging. To work with somebody you're already apprehensive about working can understandably be REALLY hard. Congrats for trying to work through it.

I'm my experience, it is hard not to compare when one has two Ts, especially if one is long term. I did it a lot and I had no personal issues with T2. She just wasn't T1. I had to remind myself that T1 and I had a totally different relationship in the very beginning than we did later on. I was expecting T2 to know me and behave like T1 did even though my relationship and T1s understanding of me had 9 years to develop. Also, when I started to see T2 I was a much different person than I had been years before in therapy. With T1 I trusted her so much that I didn't question her and when she made a mistake I didnt tell her because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I know she wanted me to because the one time I did near the end she was thankful I had the courage to tell her. I was only able to do it because I had had a similar situation with T2 and found it safe.

I still on occasion wish T2 was more like T1 but I work through it because as T2 says, nobody will ever be T1 to me. she is the bar I will always compare Ts to