Hi guys. Still doing bad today. My parents offered last night to delay their trip to my sister's because I am struggling but I didn't want them to do that. So I told them to go ahead and go. I did call up a friend and ask her if I could come to her place if I start feeling too unwell. She has her sister staying with her right now but she said she has an extra bed if I need to sleep over and I can come anytime. I want to SH so bad! I texted my T but she didn't get back to me. I emailed my former Pastor T and he sent me back a lovely, loving, sweet email telling me that runners hit a wall and then they have to push through the wall and push through their pain to get through it and that's where I am at. He also said he believes in me. I see T tomorrow. I'm kind of scared I'll be hospitalized. I know I will be if I act on any SH so I'm trying not to. Voices and visions have been good. I'm just not in a well head space. HUGS Kit