For me it was a mix of things. There were times when I was really active and productive, like working 60-70 hours per week but then I'd go home and crash and sleep and not care for myself. I'd be really restless and impulsive but also anxious. I'd feel good and social, but then cry easily too when someone talked to me. I had enough energy to function at times but also enough energy to be planning on suicidal thoughts. I was in such a mixed up state that my therapist sent me to the be evaluated and I was hospitalized. I've had other episodes like that in the past, but I try to maintain stability now with medications, therapy, and proactive self care.