I'm trying today. I have a headache from no caffeine and stomach ache from eating. I won't take medication because I deserve this for being so stupid. Hopefully tomorrow will be better pain wise. I can't wrap my mind around being relapsed, it being a bad thing and my bmi. H asked if I find him disgusting when I relapse. I'm still a little shocked my t pushed me back to every two weeks. I feel she's frustrated with me.