Hi, Manny14, and welcome to Psych Central! I'm sorry your wife has taken off. I can understand your reaching for her and how hard it must be that she's not there.
Any chance that the two of you can reconcile?
You'll have a chance to make some new friends here--and I'm sure folks who can understand what you are going through. You might check out the Relationships forum and even post there to find them.
I'm glad you've found our senior forum and have joined in. We are also here to "listen." And to have some enjoyable times.