((Echoes))
I have had similar experiences when thoughts become confusing because no one simple answer is obvoius and no one simple emotion "fits the bill." Should I be angry T took vacation? Happy for him? Sad because I miss him? Pissed at the lousy pdoc referral? Am I feeling abandoned? Proud of how well I have handled it? Smug about the fact that I don't really need him?
Yeah, we are bundles of mixed emotions. In this particular circumstance I would hope you can discuss it with T because the two of you together might be able to figure out the genesis. It sounds as though you felt usurped when T took the words out of your mouth.
When a child feels usurped it is a very difficult and unmanageable situation and confuses the self. Maybe your inner child is confused?
Anyway, that's my two cents.
Peace