3 hours between 7:30 p.m. and 10:50 p.m. (Does that count as sleep for the night)

2 hours broken between 1 a.m. and 5 a.m.

I'm trying to carry on but it's hard. Although I was prescribed Klonopin, I won't take it because of its highly addictive nature. I'm still taking Melatonin here and there. I want to start taking some lemon balm, but I don't know.

The Depakote prescribed for mania won't be getting attention from me either. After researching it, I'd rather not try it. My previous pdoc is an asshole for prescribing items I cannot use for the good long-run. I'm glad I'm leaving him for another doctor.

Hope is still there, but fading a bit.