Change is so hard. It is uncomfortable and so unfamiliar. It can knock me off my feet and make me unsettled. It can change habits and schedules that have become so familiar. It can even change friends and close relationships. At the same time the results can be awesome. They can make things better and happier and more fun. But you have to get through the change part first.
I hope you find the strength to accept the changes that will benefit you and discard the ones that won't. I hope that your list of things you want becomes part of who you are. Although you may still have to go through some change to get there.
I know it is so hard. Know I am here along your journey. You are brave and determined so the appeal of just sitting and crying may not become a full time stategy for you. At the same time it has its purpose too.
BB
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