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Originally Posted by guy1111
What you are experiencing is exactly how myself and many others have described repressed memories. Others may try and tell you that you are fabricating them, but I have been working on mine with EMDR with great success.
Take your time and explore as little or as much as you need. The more concrete your past story becomes, though, the more relief you will feel. I went from only knowing squirmy feelings to now having partial imagary of my past and as horrible as it was, I feel much better knowing that I have concrete events in my life that made me who I am.
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I am NOT trying to be argumentative, I swear - but... I have both awful squirmy feelings around hazy years, and actual clear memories that are horrible. And the stuff I remember clearly --- it doesn't help me feel better to know about it. Is it the EMDR that makes the difference? Or is it the knowing what actually happened in the 'ew, something happened there, but I don't want to really look at it' time? Because if it's the actually knowing what happened that's supposed to make you feel better, I'm defective, haha.
And - maybe I'm not even right about applying this to me, lol. I have one individual squirmy 'something happened' memory, but the rest of it is literally a space of months (a summer vacation) and years (ages 9-12) that are frosted like bathroom glass.