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Originally Posted by Rose76
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Last time I was in the hospital, a counselor asked me: "What is it you want?" I took it as a sincere question. Yet, it's an unfair question. But I knew not to say that.
Where I'm at now is an outcome of years of living my life ... It's pointless to just worry others. And even worse, people get to where they figure it's up to me to help myself. I sit around, doing nothing. Eventually that draws judgement. I judge myself. I'm not really trying.
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There IS no point to life, only the one we make ourselves. I know that doesnt come as a surprise to you.
You have freedom. You have enough money. You have good health. Its an embarrassment of riches.
Are you doing the Oprah thing where every night you write down 3 things were grateful for today?
Nobody can give you a purpose in life. Nobody can give anyone ELSE a purpose in life. I know you know this!
You are in a temporary transition period. Maybe you should reread Gail Sheehy's PASSAGES, see if it holds up. There are a lot of books and tv shows on how to design the second half of your life. Yes, opportunities may be put on hold because of covid, but as a nurse, more should be open to you.
Im probably sounding unsympathetic. I dont mean to. You are describing that you are living similar to my life, only i dont have a car or sisters or as many people to talk to, or as much energy or strength. I probably take more naps! Should i be feeling worse about myself? Betrand Russell said its okay to do nothing. I might be taking it to an extreme. I know some people say, oh plenty of time to rest when youre pushing up daisies, but what if thats harder work than we think?!
